Good-Bye Young Women

This past Sunday, I was released as Young Women's President in our ward.  I was surprised and shocked.  Still am.  In the nine years we've lived in Caliente, I've served in the YW's program nearly six years with the exception of a few years in the Primary.  It hasn't been quite a year since I was made President, and though I initially felt very inadequate, I have managed the calling and found joy in doing so, but changes have been made.  It's hard for me to not wonder if I did not serve well enough or could have done more.  I have loved this calling.  I enjoy the girls, the activities, the lessons, the firesides, the Personal Progress program, and camp.  Now that Abby and Taylor are in YW's, it seems like the perfect season of my life to serve in this capacity.  Each Sunday we recite our theme in opening exercises:
We are daughters of our Heavenly Father, who loves us, and we love Him.
We will "stand as witnesses of God at all times and in all things,
and in all places" (Mosiah 18:9) as we strive to live
the Young Women values, which are:
Faith
Divine Nature
Individual Worth
Knowledge
Choice and Accountability
Good Works
Integrity and
Virtue.
We believe as we come to accept and act upon these values,
we will be prepared to strengthen home and family, make and keep sacred covenants,
receive the ordinances of the temple, and enjoy the blessings of exaltation. 

It has been the weekly reminder I need to help me know of God's love for me and what my purpose is.  I know I should be joyful about not having to attend so many meetings and having more of my time freed up, but I feel like a fish out of water not really knowing what to do.  I am happy for the new leaders, and I have no doubt they'll be awesome.  Fresh change is always good, but I also feel concern for them.  They are all young mothers with little kids who need them.  Will they be able to balance it all without neglecting their own kids or our YW?  I know they can do it because they will have help from above, but in the meantime, I can't stop thinking about everything and wondering what's next for me?  I am grateful for the many things I have learned by serving; I hope that somehow, someday I'll be able to see that perhaps I have made a difference or helped one of our girls in some way.  I will truly miss this calling, more than any calling I have ever had.